Wednesday was a pretty darn rough day for me, followed by Thursday morning. I feel like I haven’t had any time to just sit and think, and with everything that is going on right now, I’m in desperate need of that kind of time.

On Wednesday we got word at work about Betty. To get everyone up to speed, Betty is the Director of Travel (all the Flying Longhorn trips). A couple of months ago she went to the ER b/c she thought she was having a heart attack. They ended up diagnosing her with cancer (renal cell carcinoma). She hasn’t been to work since, but instead has been making weekly trips to M.D. Anderson. She’s been in and out of the hospital, and on Tuesday we received word that she was in pretty bad condition at the hospital. Then on Wednesday during lunch we got an email that she was being transferred to a hospice and that her family requested no visitors. I’m pretty sure that’s not a good sign. I’ve only known Betty for a year, but I loved every minute of talking to her about her travel adventures. She has a beautiful smile and is full of grace and class. I know that things are pretty grave, but I still hold out on hope that she can somehow overcome this.

After checking that email on my blackberry while at lunch, I then received a call from my mom. She was crying, so I figured that wasn’t a good sign. My oldest brother Ralph is getting a divorce. This came as a huge shock to me. Ralph wasn’t expecting it either, and my mom said he was a mess and crying on the phone. They have three kids, and apparently the kids aren’t taking it very well. And my sister-in-law Kim won’t give Ralph a reason as to why she wants a divorce. Her family is apparently mad at her. This is so confusing to me, especially since Kim is one of my very closest friends. I don’t know where that leaves us now, considering that my mom is extremely upset with her and doesn’t want to talk to her. I love my brother and of course he comes first. But Kim has been in my life for over 10 years now, and it’s like I’m losing a friend and a sister.

If that wasn’t enough to make me sad, then the news continued. Ralph is being deployed to Afghanistan at the end of September. Ugh. I hate when he gets deployed. His superiors said he won’t see combat, but you don’t go to Afghanistan and not see combat. He is suppose to be partaking in some secret mission, and he can’t have contact with the outside world for 6 months. That’s a long time of not being able to talk to him. Even when he was in Iraq, we had an address where we could send him care packages. I feel so bad for Ralph. I hope he still comes down for the Arkansas game so that I can see him and try to talk and make sure he’s okay…though I know he’s not.

I didn’t have a chance to think about any of these things on Wednesday b/c I had a scholarship dinner that I was solely responsible for that night.

After the dinner, I ran to go buy a new mattress before the store closed so that I could ensure a Friday delivery. Well, the store wouldn’t take my check. They didn’t tell me why. I had money in my account, but for some reason they wouldn’t take my check. I was so pissed off, I just left without giving them an alternate method of payment (I eventually went back yesterday and paid). So needless to say, my day wasn’t good. Then I got home to find a FedEx slip on my door saying they left a package on my patio. I didn’t order anything, so I was very confused. I opened up the package, saw what was inside, and hurled it across the living room. Of course J.Crew found a damaged dress after I already bought a dress and had it ripped to pieces for material. Of course! It was at that point that I figured it was time to just close my eyes and forget about the day.

I woke up early on Thursday to get to work early since we had a really big scholarship dinner that night. I jumped in the shower, and of course I would have no hot water. It was the worst shower ever. I was not in a good mood!

But anywho, I took a mental health day from work today and awaited my new furniture. I have new bedroom furniture and a dining room table. As soon as I get everything in place, I will take pictures.

Alrighty, off to bed. Toodles!